Relief.

Tonight has been so wonderful!
I had my last performance of the semester tonight and it was great. I was in one of the pieces which was only about a ten minutes long but it was the first theatrical endeavor my roommate has been on! It was so fun. Very artsy and abstract. After the show I went to the brewery with some friends. That brewery has the best chocolate cupcakes in the world. Stout inspired, dessert mana from heaven.
The night before I was in a dance recital for the dance class I took this semester. That was also really fun (despite my lack of dance talent).
I have had to prepare so many things for this week, being the week before finals, and I am so relieved that the bulk is over and out of the way.
I can't really believe that I am nearly done with my first YEAR of college. What? Where did that go?? This past year has felt like 3 months yet this semester has felt like 5 years. I have learned so much and experienced so much this semester- it's unreal.

MYTHS:
1. "There's something magical about life in college, because it's college." <-- That is false. Life feels pretty normal still.
2. "College students are adults." <-- College is just school you pay for, it doesn't keep immature people out.

TRUTHS:
1. You meet some of the most wonderful people in the world in college.
2. It's okay to let go of your fantastic high school life.

For whatever reason, I have been so concerned about my personality coming off too strong or whatever that I haven't been allowing myself to enjoy college. But something clicked in the last couple weeks, I guess I realized that if you be yourself (truly yourself), someone is bound to accept you. And oftentimes, those "someone's" are much larger in number than you can anticipate.

My favorite line I said tonight was this, "With your lips not here, I kiss rubies to remember. When I can't sip from you, I put my lip to the cup's lip. Instead of reaching into your sky, I kneel and take handfuls of earth." 

Not sure how I feel about not being able to see Erik for nearly a year. I can't wrap my head around it. I'll be kissing rubies for quite some time..

 My favorite quote from one of the pieces tonight was this, "I saw you looking for someone. Cheer up! There's always a glimmer of hope. And if you found them once, they'll come back to you eventually, right?" 

I don't know how true that is, but it sure is a lovely thought.