Getting Taller.

I just want to be done. I want to fast forward or rewind to "better than right now." Yes, I have seen the movie Click and I understand the repercussions, I'm just done with
this week.
This semester.
This urge to spill my guts about what's going on in my life. This has seriously been one of the most stressful weeks of my life and for what? For me to turn around and pretend like nothing has happened/is happening. I have to find a way to adjust... adapt... acclimate, whatever the right term may be, my emotions and my thought process back to pre-stress.
How do I do that?
For crying out loud, I am persevering through the time it takes to achieve an unknown outcome. All my experience in "persevering" looks like this:
1. Struggle/Issue/Goal
2. Work/Wrestle/Talk it out relentlessly.
3. Clean up the mess.
4. Move on with life = FORGET ABOUT IT.
Ha, funny thing about this time is... I can't. I can't forget about it. I have to live with this.
Well, I guess I don't really... It's just that it isn't resolved. The issue isn't resolved and no matter how much I am willing to participate in resolving it, it's not going to happen. Not for a looong time.
Bad dreams are annoying too.
I know there is nothing to gain by giving in - it just feels lonely. I feel like my defenses are shot and I have nothing left to keep me standing.
But that's where my God comes in. I know He is in this entire situation- just because this situation is affecting me, doesn't make it about me. Lord, bring me rest... I would love for You to come sit on the curb with me for a little while and laugh at how I'm reacting just so I know how small this really is.
So I've decided to stop dwelling on this.  I don't really know how, but that's okay. I know how to keep my mouth shut and I know how to focus. So that's what I'm going to do.
*SIGH*
Growing pains suck.